When Heaven Doesn't Answer

The past few months have been intensely difficult for me. I've been sick and in quite a lot of pain a large majority of the time. I have been feeling very disconnected from people and unable to build any real significant relationships. Rumors and lies have gone around my church about me and the situation was not dealt with well and left me feeling quite hurt and confused. But the most difficult thing about the past few months is not the situations I have been dealing with but rather the fact that God has been completely silent in the midst of all this.

Because I Have Forgotten How to Speak

It seems that I have forgotten how to really share my heart with people. There has been so much going on in my life and my heart and mind lately, things that I DESPERATELY want to talk to someone about, but for some reason, I can't. Not can't because it's not appropriate to share but can't because I have no idea how. So, once again, I turn to writing it out because my voice is failing me.

I am so horrible at this vulnerability and intimacy thing. I know many of the reasons why this is a struggle for me and this post is not going to be about what I need to share but why I am struggling so much to do so.