How do you trust God when you don’t trust God?
For the past two and half years, I have struggled with spending time with God. Not the kind of struggle for time that I was used to. It wasn’t about finding time to spend time with Him. It was that I absolutely did not want to spend time with Him. I knew it was because I did not want to hear what He had to say to me in those times but for the life of me I could not figure out why I didn’t want to hear from in that setting.
It wasn’t that I didn’t want to be with Him at all. I still very much looked forward to church services and worship nights and conferences where I knew His presence would show up. I still received prophetic words from others and clung to those words. I just did not want to sit alone with Him and hear what He might tell me in those moments.
