What a Crazy Life!

These past weeks few weeks have been nothing short of eventful! I would love to tell you the long story, but for the sake of time (mine and yours) I'm simply going to share with you all the changes that have happened and where this is taking me.

Tomorrow at 12:45 pm I will leave Kona Hawaii and fly to Honolulu. I will be there for four days, spending time with my aunt and uncle, resting, relaxing and being spoiled (oh how I'm looking forward to that)! :)  When I leave  Honolulu I will head to Great Falls, MT aka Home. I will be spending close to a week in MT. One crazy, busy, hectic week full of family, friends, coffee and general merry-making.

Hawaii Sun and random musings

I find myself being struck with the face that I actually LIVE in Hawaii at random, odd moments. This morning I was sitting a low rock wall, drinking coffee and looking at the ocean with sweat running down my back (at 10 in the morning!!!!) and it just hit me. This thought that surfaces every once in a while. "I can believe I actually live here." For me, though, unlike most people I know here, it's not a though that brings with it the crazy feelings of  "Wow! I can't believe I live in this paradise where people with lots of money honey-moon and vacation," but rather, "Wow, I can't believe that I live in this foreign place where summer never ends and people I've never understood or related to dream of living."

Transitions

The past three months I have been in Kona Hawaii taking the Church Pioneering School at Youth With a Mission's University of the Nations. It's been challenging, affirming and just all around wonderful. Now it has come to a close. Classes are over and my classmates will all be leaving in the next week to various locations around the world.

I had planned on going to the Philippines with a few of my classmates and staff to put into practice everything we've been learning and then go from there but as often happens, God had other plans for me. After lots of prayer and counsel, I have decided to stay here in Kona staffing in the coffee shop on campus. This was not at all what I planned or thought of when I came out here. To be perfectly honest, I don't like Hawaii that much. It would be great to vacation here, but living here is not so great, especially for a Montana girl who loves seasons and mountains and long road trips. But, I am going to be obedient and stay here for as long as God calls me.

Play List

Thought it would be fun to include my wonderful playlist of beautiful music I was listening to while writing my previous two blogs. Hope you enjoy! :)

Wounds that Heal Part 2

I sank to the floor and I said, "I trust You. I'm scared but I trust you." Thankfully, God is amazingly good and He only shows us what we need to know. He did not, like I feared, show me that abuse. Instead, I heard a voice. I heard it as clearly as though I was remember a conversation from yesterday. It was the voice of an unfamiliar man, but I knew who it was. He said to me, "Your mommy and daddy gave me permission to do this to you. They brought here and told me I could do this because you haven't been a good girl." I heard those sentences I completely lost it. I was sitting on the floor sobbing for almost an hour. Huge, heaving wailing sobs with snot running down my face and my shirt becoming drenched in tears. 

Wounds that Heal Part 1

Memories are interesting things, often taking on their own life, their own personality. They decide when they want to be remembered and forgotten, sometimes they lie, other times they tell the brutal, honest truth. There are memories that bring you joy, memories that bring nostalgia and a tinge of sadness, and memories that bring you nothing but pain.

And there are those that hide.

The One Thing

Tuesday afternoon I was informed by my school leaders that I need to have the remainder of my fees for lecture phase in by Friday. I still need $1700 and was praying about what God wanted me to do. Tuesday night I felt led to fast until Friday evening.

Since then I have been spending a lot of time in the prayer room. I have been soaking myself in the Word and really seeking God's heart for me during this time. Yesterday during my dinner-time prayer, God told me to read Song of Solomon. As I was reading that God gave a wonderful revelation of what His heart is for me in this.